Honesty, Perhaps The Best Place to Start.

Sometimes I have trouble admitting simple truths. But I'm going to try and be as honest as possible on this blog.. Even if it's embarrasing. If you can't learn from the things you do, then what else can come from it?

Competition. Competing. Those words had been thrown around, along with jealousy. No, I'm not jealous of anyone, I don't need to be, I have everything I want and need, so no, I'm not guilty of being jealous. However, yes. I'm guilty of competing. It's not something I've only just realised. I am very competitive. Before my best friend and I reached a point in our friendship that led us to being nothing but absolute true and honest best friends, we used to compete - Luckily we've outgrown that, we now just nurture and love each other, very simply and truly. There's no false encouragement, there's no feigning interest, it's just real.

For the past four years, I have been VERY guilty of competing. I don't know how it started. But I'm glad it's over. Having the bigger the better - it was the name of the game.. It's silly, it's immature and I'll admit that, but even now, I'll stand by the fact that - We BOTH did it, even if someone doesn't want to admit it... And, even if I am admitting now that I did compete and I competed hard... At the end of the four years at the end of the day, I can also admit that, in these competition... I kicked arse. =)

So.. It's led me to this point. The point where, I don't have anyone to compete with anymore, it's been done. It's been proven, the show is over. I'm moving above and beyond it. So, I have some plans, the outline pretty much is - Before it was about having better.. But now, it's about living on the most basic means possible, in order to achieve the desired outcome. I know I can pull off the things I set my mind to. I have the vision in my head and I know what I want and now is the time to pull the giant stick out of be-hind and get what I want for myself and for my family - not to prove anything to anyone - Just because I know it's what we want - it's for no one else, but the 4 people who live under this roof.