Bridging the Gaps In Space and Time.

So apparently a picture of my half naked arse and my boob that is covered by a big black dot is offensive, hence it's imperiative that it be removed from facebook for violating terms of service, however it's quite appropriate for facebook pages that pertain to babies dying, pages that poke fun at miscarriages, rape etc, for these pages to remain in existence? I don't understand the terms of service, especially when my photo was posted on a closed group, that only members can see, members who are in the same type of mind-set that I am, about losing weight. They're not offended by a picture of someones "progress".

It sucks that I just don't know who reported the picture!

It's moments like these; Today.. Tonight.. That make me so grateful for Clints existence. I am missing him so bad! I wish he was here right now, even if when he is, he's asleep in the other room, just knowing he's here, is enough to keep my heart and my mind at ease. I miss him more than I could ever express and it's not even been a full day. Waa!

Brody has been nappyless most days during the day lately, he's been weeing in the backyard which is an amazing start! This morning he wee'd in the shower, which was good! Usually he doesn't like the shower and doesn't like weeing out of a nappy, but we've been encouraging him with stamps, stickers and prizes. I am going to construct a "weeing" start chart and if he does his weeing well for the month, I am going to buy him the Cars 2 game on Wii, as we will have saved that amount of money on nappies. Of course I'm not ALWAYS going to award going to the toilet, but I am willing at this point, to do anything that will encourage and push him in the right direction. His daycare said to send him to school with a few pairs of nappies and spare pants, and they will let him wee the same way he does at home and have spares for him incase he has an accident. I am pretty proud of him so far.

Today he made me smile, he was sitting with my friend Amber's baby girl Dakota and he looked at me and said "Mummy, she has such a lovely face". It was sooo beautiful!!!!

Operation clean house is going alright so far. But we had guests last night and today, so all the kids playing, the babies and us adults combined, makes it hard to even maintain a regularly clean house, let alone a CLEANED OUT house! lol everytime I turned around there was more mess behind me!

Tomorrow my sisters, our children, and I are going to Mingara for lunch with a friend of ours, Tom, he moved to England a few years ago with his girlfriend. They've since had 2 children and they're back for a visit! I am so excited, a bit nervous and apprehensive - I am nervous to see Thomas after so long!! But cannot wait as well!

I'm not good with stuff like this - Usually if I make plans to see someone who I haven't seen in a long time, I make excuses, feign an illness, pretend I have some other REALLY important plans that I could not possibly miss. I am trying much harder with this - to be someone who isn't too nervous to catch up with old friends and bridge the gaps that have been created by distance and time.

I am one of those people who don't have many friends left from highschool or primay school, I made the effort with very few. The ones who I wanted to keep, the others got lost in a sea somewhere. I don't see people in the shopping centre and happily engage in idle chit chat. I dispise idle chit chat, Clinton is always laughing at me at the shops, cos I actively try to avoid eye contact with people I know, so as to lessen the chance of getting caught up, having to do the obligatory "Ohhh hiii, how are you?". If it's not there, I can't force it. Either I can speak to someone, or I can't. I can't do small talk. It drives me crazy!